Shot on 16mm, Landscapes of Shame is a 40 min experimental travelogue across Ireland using a first-person voice-over to examine the impact of British colonisation on Irish culture, mythology, and ecology. It links these impacts to personal and collective shame (a feature common to colonised nations) framing it against our current moment of climate crisis, species extinction and far-right politics. My most personal work to date, it’s a hybrid encompassing fiction, travel, biography, myth, and history, exploring how these colonial legacies entangled themselves in my identity as a queer person growing up in 1990’s rural Ireland. Central to the film is Oliver Cromwell’s 1649 invasion of Ireland which accelerated the decimation of native forests and led to the extinction of the Irish Grey Wolf - an integral part of Irish ecology, culture, and mythology, perceived by Cromwell as symbolic of the untamed spirit of Ireland. Though now extinct, their memory survives in Irish language place names like ‘Isknamacteera’ (Water of the Wolves), a lake in Kerry, and in folklore, such as ‘the faoladh,’ a person that shape-shifts into a wolf; a guardian, rather than a bloodthirsty creature. Growing up queer in 90s rural Ireland, I retreated into stories of monstrous shapeshifters like those of Irish werewolves; perhaps they represented non-normative ways of being, of identities forever in flux. Ironically, living in England I began to understand how the webs of shame around queerness, being rural (a bogger) and National shame of pre-colonial identity; our myths, culture and Irish language itself, all had its roots in the British colonial project that was originated in Ireland.